No excuses but really…lupus and its symptoms hurt more than my body. There is so much that I want to do but physically sometimes just can’t.
I get into this terrible cycle of not calling because I don’t want to bother people…and then think it was just last week that I spoke with them. Terrible because months will go by that I haven’t spoken with them.
What do you feel guilt over? What do you do to overcome it?
I need to remember that those that love me understand. Some days are better than others in this belief.
Blessings.
So many things…so many unknowns. Please help if you can.
Closing this week, and this chapter.
Proud of myself? Nope…frustrated. Frustrated that I have regain, and it took having pictures to show me what I look like again. Frustrated that I have allowed myself to not follow the plan, and the tool that I fought hard to have help me.
June 2015–Washington DC.
I have to be proud that I am no longer there – right?
February 2019 – 
Continues…
Thank you.
Blessings.
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Again no makeup, but my after!! So excited. I won’t have to bother with a makeup pencil or doing anything with my lashes. This is huge for me especially due to my Sjogrens (my eyes are extremely dry and wearing makeup increases the dryness). This next picture was immediately after having the tint done. I didn’t want to wash it for a while as the longer you wait the LONGER it will last.
And then after washing my face, and again with no makeup!! 
Super happy! I didn’t have to spend time in my brows, or feel like I have to wear eye makeup just to feel put together. This may only last a month or even a few weeks, but so worth it for me.
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