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Control

My actions and reactions are mine, and mine alone. I choose to let things happen to me, right?

Finding my voice…

Blessings.

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Guilt

No excuses but really…lupus and its symptoms hurt more than my body. There is so much that I want to do but physically sometimes just can’t.

I get into this terrible cycle of not calling because I don’t want to bother people…and then think it was just last week that I spoke with them.  Terrible because months will go by that I haven’t spoken with them.

What do you feel guilt over?  What do you do to overcome it?

I need to remember that those that love me understand.  Some days are better than others in this belief.

Blessings.

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Lupus

May is Lupus Awareness Month. It is also Sjogren’s Syndrome Awareness. I have these diseases but I fight like a girl, and every day is a blessing.

If you want to contribute to Lupus Awareness please go to Lupus.org for more information.

I am a Lupus WARRIOR! 💗

Blessings today and always.

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Sunday Thoughts

Carmen is in the process of moving from Baton Rouge to Tallahassee, and has the burden of two rents until she can find a sub-lessor.  She applied for and got a new job in her degree field (so proud).  She has been anxious about the money, and rightly so, but we have reassured her that we will help.  It will be tight, but we are able, thankfully.

She gets her anxiety from me.  Although, as her parent, I try to reassure her (sometimes more than twice in a day), she accepts it, and then takes it back.  I understand that it is hard not to.

“Thank Me for the gift of My Peace, a gift of such immense proportions that you cannot fathom its depth or breadth.  When I appeared to My disciples after the resurrection, it was Peace that I communicated first of all.  I knew this was their deepest need:  to calm their fears and clear their minds.  I also speak Peace to you, for I know your anxious thoughts.  Listen to Me!  Tune out the other voices, so that you can hear Me more clearly.  I designed you to dwell in Peace all day, every day.  Draw near to Me; receive My Peace.” – John 20:19; Colossians 3:15 – Jesus is Calling by Sarah Young

We know as children of Christ, we have peace in Him.  He reassures me, I know that.  I take back what I give to him thinking that I need to be in control.  I know that I am not, but at the time, it makes me feel better.  But in the end, it makes matters worse.  I know that if I give an issue I am struggling with to God, and let Him continue to have it, it calms me —gives me a peace and understanding.  It is when I think He is doing nothing that I take it back.  Like I know these things?

We all struggle with peace, and anxiousness, just on different levels.  People have struggled since the beginning of time with these things – maybe not a mortgage or rent – but finding shelter, and having food?  Why don’t we look back and see that we are carried?  Cared for?  Loved and reassured?   I know these things.  I question.  I struggle.

As a parent, I try to let our children know these same things, and become frustrated that they don’t listen.  I am thankful for a God that extends His care and peace over and over again without limitations.  I try to do the same for my family.  That is what we are to do, right, be like Christ?

How do you struggle?  What calms you with the daily issues of life?

Blessings.

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Sunday Thoughts

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“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” Matthew 6:34 NIV
Trying to remind myself of this today.
Blessings.
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Sunday Thought

“Joshua said to them, ‘Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Be strong and courageous. This is what the LORD will do to all the enemies you are going to fight.”  Joshua 10:25 NIV

I have been discouraged with myself this past week.  So much so that people actually see that something is wrong, that I am upset.  I am not dealing well with things at work.  Not that my work has changed, but the work I am doing.  I am the type of person who wants my work to be perfect.  It has to done perfectly.  I fight with myself on this constantly.

Logically,  I know that I am not perfect, nor the work I do is perfect.  I know this, but it doesn’t change the fact that I want it to be.  My enemies are my inside voices.  Those that tell me I am not good enough.  That I can’t do it all.  (Again, I know that I can’t but some days are worse than others.)  My self worth has been low lately.

I over commit to things in January.  I am overwhelmed, although not busy.  I am anxious with silly things.  I want to be calm in spirit, to encourage and support those around me.  One evening this past week, I came home and just cried.  I tell others that when they do that it is a release.  Your body can’t hold in everything anymore and needs to let things go.  I feel week, and uncertain when it happens to me.

So…

“I am with you and for you.  You face nothing alone–nothing! when you feel anxious, know that you are focusing on the visible world and leaving Me out of the picture.  The remedy is simple:  Fix your eyes not on what is seen but on what is unseen.  Verbalize your trust in Me, the Living One who sees you always.  I will get you safely through this day and all your days.  But you can find Me only in the present.  Each day is a precious gift from My Father.  How ridiculous to grasp for future gifts when today’s is set before you! Receive today’s gift gratefully, unwrapping it tenderly and delving into its depths.  As you savor this gift, you find Me.” – Romans 8:31; 2 Corinthians 4:18; Genesis 16:13-14 AMP —Jesus is Calling by Sarah Young

Again, making some changes.  Letting go.  Forgiving myself and knowing that I don’t have to do everything.

I am enough.

Blessings.