Love and blessings.
On a continued break…
Love and blessings.
Continued social break…
Love and blessings.
“Joshua said to them, ‘Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Be strong and courageous. This is what the LORD will do to all the enemies you are going to fight.” Joshua 10:25 NIV
I have been discouraged with myself this past week. So much so that people actually see that something is wrong, that I am upset. I am not dealing well with things at work. Not that my work has changed, but the work I am doing. I am the type of person who wants my work to be perfect. It has to done perfectly. I fight with myself on this constantly.
Logically, I know that I am not perfect, nor the work I do is perfect. I know this, but it doesn’t change the fact that I want it to be. My enemies are my inside voices. Those that tell me I am not good enough. That I can’t do it all. (Again, I know that I can’t but some days are worse than others.) My self worth has been low lately.
I over commit to things in January. I am overwhelmed, although not busy. I am anxious with silly things. I want to be calm in spirit, to encourage and support those around me. One evening this past week, I came home and just cried. I tell others that when they do that it is a release. Your body can’t hold in everything anymore and needs to let things go. I feel week, and uncertain when it happens to me.
“I am with you and for you. You face nothing alone–nothing! when you feel anxious, know that you are focusing on the visible world and leaving Me out of the picture. The remedy is simple: Fix your eyes not on what is seen but on what is unseen. Verbalize your trust in Me, the Living One who sees you always. I will get you safely through this day and all your days. But you can find Me only in the present. Each day is a precious gift from My Father. How ridiculous to grasp for future gifts when today’s is set before you! Receive today’s gift gratefully, unwrapping it tenderly and delving into its depths. As you savor this gift, you find Me.” – Romans 8:31; 2 Corinthians 4:18; Genesis 16:13-14 AMP —Jesus is Calling by Sarah Young
Again, making some changes. Letting go. Forgiving myself and knowing that I don’t have to do everything.
I am enough.
“Give up the illusion that you deserve a problem-free life. Part of you is still hungering for the resolution of all difficulties. This is a a false hope! As I told My disciples, in the world you will have trouble. Link your hope not to problem solving in this life but to the promise of an eternity of problem-free life in heaven. Instead of seeking perfection in this fallen world, pour your energy into seeking Me: the Perfect One.” – – Jesus is Calling; John 16:33
Seems simple, right? I know that I want all of the answers to what is going on in my life. Difficulties are constant, at least in my world. I know that I struggle with being overwhelmed, taking on too much, trying to be everything to everyone as I don’t ever want to disappoint others. The list goes on and on.
All of these things will disappear if I keep my focus on Him. Seeking quiet time, praying for peace and discernment in my daily choices. I can’t do everything. I know this. Why then is it so hard to say ‘no’ or not feel guilty if I do say ‘no’ to someone or doing something.
People that know me and love me understand my limitations. Jesus knows what I can do and what I shouldn’t be doing. Again, why do I question Him? I know that I have written about this before, but I truly believe in the spoken affirmation. If we speak it (either positive or negative), we hear it and believe it. I need to speak positive, reaffirming, loving words to myself. Praying for those things, and it will be heard. He will hear it.
What words do you speak to yourself or in prayer to handle daily difficulties? I need to make mine more of hourly or even moment by moment habit.
I had shared this on Facebook, and find it hilarious.
Here’s to not cooking for the next several days!
This picture was from last year. Everyone was home and we were able to celebrate as a family.
Stephen’s work schedule (and now that he has moved out) it is harder to see him. When we spoke about it last night, he wasn’t sure that he would be able to come by to celebrate Christmas until New Year’s Day.
It’s hard for those who work in the holidays to be able to spend time with family and friends. I don’t normally think about those that are working when I shop or eat out until I have someone close to me that is going through it.
Holidays are not always a happy time for most. It is stressful and typically has disappointments from unmet expectations. When the kids were small, they shared the holiday with my ex husband. I really didn’t want to even have a tree up if they weren’t home but I knew that when they did get home they would want it. Being separated from loved ones over a holiday is so very difficult.
All of this to say, hug your loved ones. Enjoy the moments you are able to have with one another, and remember the greatest gift.
I am not going to get it all done…just putting this out there. Feeling okay about too.
Well…I voted. Are you happy with the results?