From my Passion Planner last week. I have been praying – meditating on this all week.
When the kids were little, our concentration on friends were those with children of similar ages and interests. As adults, those interests have changed. My work has changed…David’s work has changed. He has the time to be more involved with the local community theater. We have met some incredible people along this path. I am so very grateful for the exposure to so many cultures and groups.
I miss my Christian involvement, and have guilt about not being involved with church. However, I feel as though I no longer belong there. Again, it is about growth and change, and it isn’t all bad.
I like the people I/we that are surround us. I love my besties, and miss them terribly when we can’t spend time together. I love our friend groups, and they are most definitely a diverse group of people.
Need to remember that I should be a good person to be around, to encourage others to be better or bring them some amount of joy. I also need to remind myself that it is okay to let some of them go, especially when they bring me down.
No excuses but really…lupus and its symptoms hurt more than my body. There is so much that I want to do but physically sometimes just can’t.
I get into this terrible cycle of not calling because I don’t want to bother people…and then think it was just last week that I spoke with them. Terrible because months will go by that I haven’t spoken with them.
What do you feel guilt over? What do you do to overcome it?
I need to remember that those that love me understand. Some days are better than others in this belief.
Please take a moment of silence to remember those who fought and lost their lives for our country.
I am so very grateful for my circle, my friends, and my family. However, being aware of possible sinking isn’t a bad thing either.
Do you know who is rowing in your boat or drilling the holes?
I completely forgot to post something this morning.
We are traveling back from a wonderful couples weekend in Tallahassee. I so love these people.
We also helped Carmen unload more of her apartment.
Will post more tomorrow.
Carmen and I flew home yesterday to 74 degree weather. We unpacked our bags, changed clothes, and headed to the beach.
We live about 15 minutes away so it’s not a long drive except during everyone’s spring break! It took about 40 minutes to get there but so worth it.
We ate some oysters and crab claws, and our bodies were thankful.
My mind and heart are thankful as well. I had a wonderful experience with Carmen. I love our friendship and the way it has blossomed with her aging.
Thankful to God for both of my adult children even with the trials and tribulations. They continue to make my heart happy.
“I thank God every time I remember you.” – Philippians 1:3 NIV
What are you thankful for today?
I am so ready to come home to my guy today (note: it’s not Sam Elliott).
It’s been a great adventure, so happy for Carmen and beginning her career at FSU beginning Monday. Not sure I am ready to cheer for them but so goes life, right?
The adventures with this one has been grand. So excited for her future. Have loved this week with her. But ready to be home to this one…
I am so grateful for him and allowing me to be who I am. Loving my kids as his own. Encouraging all of us to be us…unconditionally. He is amazing. I am grateful, and ready for my lipstick to be smeared.
Carmen and I are in Washington DC and NYC this week for my spring break, and to celebrate her graduation from LSU last December.
It is aLao a great excuse to spend time with my nieces (and Carmen to have some cousin time). Spending time with family, and their chickens.
The girls are in school, so we explored DC museums yesterday, and are planning on visiting the Supreme Court today.
Oh, by the way, yesterday’s high temperature was 49 degrees! The temperature this morning…29 degrees! Today is supposed to be a bit warmer—51 degrees. Yikes. Carmen and I are warm blooded…and have been freezing! We did bring coats and gloves…but these Florida girls are missing the beach.
This applies to so many things in my life right now. I am trying to focus on dealing with challenges and problems, and I think I am locked in. Although I float between the Learning Zone and Fear Zone with the self-confidence, I am building in that area.
My swings apply to my Lupus, weight loss, health in general, work and then life (family and friends). I feel pulled in so many directions, and want everyone to be happy with me, I forget to be happy with myself. Staying in the Fear Zone is something I do not want to do. It seems I don’t consciously think that I am there.
Today I put myself out there…extending my comfort zone. I spoke up for myself, and felt validated afterwards. It is so hard, especially when I think others have a preset idea. It is good to be heard, listened to, and acknowledged for my thoughts and ideas.
Presenting myself in a way that speaks self-confidence, I have gained more self-confidence. Ironic really, and now I want to grow more.
What zone do you linger in? How have you conquered your personal growth or not?
Blessings today and always.