“Those who promote peace have joy.” Proverbs 12:20
Trying to remember this as the Christmas season is coming soon. I am really wanting to jump ahead to Christmas but remember that I need to be so very thankful where I am and how far I have come.
Promote peace…have joy. ❤️ Thankful for you.
Blessings.
So I did a thing…
I applied and went to open casting for Masterchef this past Saturday in Atlanta. This has been a dream of mine for the past ten years. I applied and tried.
It was exciting, nerve wracking, and completely out of my comfort zone.
I made a Stacked Tuna Poke’. I will post the recipe later this week…but I did it. I signed up and tried. I didn’t make it past the first interview round but the two tasting chefs liked my dish, tasted it twice and even videotaped it. So there is that.
Lesson learned is simply go for it…if you don’t try you won’t succeed. Pretty simple I know but so worth it.
Go for your dreams…ya never know until you try.
Blessings my friends.
“In Christ, you are enormously gifted. You have an unseen enemy who is after that gift.” -Beth Moore
“Protect that good thing entrusted to you through the Holy Spirit who lives in you.” 2 Timothy 1:14
I went after a dream using one of the gifts I have…
But the overall gift from the day was the experience.
Happy…grateful…thankful. More tomorrow.
Walking…
Happy Monday!
My actions and reactions are mine, and mine alone. I choose to let things happen to me, right?
Finding my voice…
Blessings.
For a Tuesday that is really a Monday after a three day weekend.
Blessings.
Closing this week, and this chapter.
Thank you for all the love.
Blessings.
Proud of myself? Nope…frustrated. Frustrated that I have regain, and it took having pictures to show me what I look like again. Frustrated that I have allowed myself to not follow the plan, and the tool that I fought hard to have help me.
June 2015–Washington DC.
I have to be proud that I am no longer there – right?
February 2019 – Disney Princess 5k —I am SO VERY PROUD of myself for this. Why can’t I just be happy with myself? It is a daily struggle – constant. David asked if I was okay with my weight, and I told him “yes.” But I am not okay with it. I feel so much better than what I did five years ago. Can’t that be enough?
Thankful. Frustrated. Proud. Enough.
Blessings.
Today marks my third anniversary of my gastric sleeve surgery. I am still over a hundred (100!) pounds gone, but have regain. 
The picture above is my heaviest – 315 or 316…the right – with my regain a coupe of weeks ago—a very windy, wedding celebration.
Some pictures of before the regain…
The picture below came in a card from the Surgery Center. The picture on the left was the Friday before surgery (after losing 20 pounds), and the right is at 183- my lowest weight. 
I know I need to get a handle on my regain, and yes, I am very aware of the issues that are around the corner if I don’t contain it.
But…I come back to —I am not 316 pounds. I am able to walk – anywhere – and even participate in 5k’s. I might not be very fast, but I am out there. I am proud of where I am.
I am enough. I am able to so much these days…and nothing has to do with my size or weight.
I am enough. Happy Surgery Day to me.
Blessings.
Blessings.
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