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Trying

Thanks to LA (Waking Up on the Wrong Side of 50). She pointed out that I am so much better than I was four years ago.

Next time, or tomorrow is always an option. Giving up just because you fail today doesn’t mean that tomorrow you will fail again.

Blessings.

 

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Woman

I’ve hated this woman. I’ve not loved her at full capacity. I’ve fed her lies & told her she wasn’t good enough and have allowed others to tell her she wasn’t good enough. I’ve allowed her to be broken. I’ve allowed others to treat her disrespectfully.

I’ve allowed her to run through brick walls & battle for others who won’t even stand for her. I couldn’t stop individuals from abandoning her, yet I’ve seen her get up and stand to be a light to the world & love others despite all that. I have stood paralyzed by fear while she fought battles in her mind, heart and soul.

This woman has screwed up many times as a mom, or as a friend, because she doesn’t always say or do the “right things”. She has a smart mouth, and she has secrets. She has scars… because she has a history.

Some people love this woman, some like her, and some people don’t care for her at all.

She has done good in her life. She has done bad in her life. She goes days without makeup, or shaving her legs. She doesn’t get dressed up very often. She is random and sometimes silly. She will not pretend to be someone she is not. She is who she is.

Every mistake, failure, trial, disappointment, success, joy, and achievement has made her the woman she is today.

You can love her or not. But if she loves you, she will do it with her whole heart, and she will make no apologies for the way she is.

This Woman is a WARRIOR. She’s not perfect but she has a lot of WORTH! She’s UNSTOPPABLE. Gracefully broken but beautifully standing. She is loved. She is life. She is transformation. She is Grace. She is BRAVE!

She is a child of God!

Ladies, I dare you to put this on your status, with a picture of yourself, If you’re proud to be who you are. Copied from social media…and to be honest…I don’t remember where.

Blessings.

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You

Proud of myself?  Nope…frustrated.  Frustrated that I have regain, and it took having pictures to show me what I look like again.  Frustrated that I have allowed myself to not follow the plan, and the tool that I fought hard to have help me.DSC_0244June 2015–Washington DC.JACI have to be proud that I am no longer there – right?img_0308February 2019 – Disney Princess 5k —I am SO VERY PROUD of myself for this.  Why can’t I just be happy with myself?  It is a daily struggle – constant.  David asked if I was okay with my weight, and I told him “yes.”  But I am not okay with it.  I feel so much better than what I did five years ago.  Can’t that be enough?

Thankful.  Frustrated.  Proud.  Enough.

Blessings.

 

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3 Years

Today marks my third anniversary of my gastric sleeve surgery.  I am still over a hundred (100!) pounds gone, but have regain.  The picture above is my heaviest – 315 or 316…the right – with my regain a coupe of weeks ago—a very windy, wedding celebration.

Some pictures of before the regain…

The picture below came in a card from the Surgery Center.  The picture on the left was the Friday before surgery (after losing 20 pounds), and the right is at 183- my lowest weight. I know I need to get a handle on my regain, and yes, I am very aware of the issues that are around the corner if I don’t contain it.

But…I come back to —I am not 316 pounds.  I am able to walk – anywhere – and even participate in 5k’s.  I might not be very fast, but I am out there.  I am proud of where I am.

I am enough.  I am able to so much these days…and nothing has to do with my size or weight.

I am enough.  Happy Surgery Day to me.

Blessings.

2019 · Bariatric Surgery - My Story · Disney · Remembering · Star Wars · Travel · Uncategorized · Walt Disney · WLS

May 4th

May the 4th be with you…

This wasn’t going to be my post today, but after the actor that portrayed Chewey, Peter Mayhew. passed away on May 1st, I had to change it.

Yes I know that this is at Disney, and that this isn’t the actual character, but…I was in awe and blown away by the experience.It was like I was chatting with Chewey (of course), but really though!  I was overwhelmed.This was an amazing experience, and I am so happy that I was able to experience it.It was wonderful. Truly awesome, and a memorable experience.  I have loved the Star Wars movies, and most of the characters since I was twelve.

By the way, I hate the way I look in the pictures.  I have had about thirty pounds of regain, and it shows.  Ugh.

Blessings.

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Lupus

May is Lupus Awareness Month. It is also Sjogren’s Syndrome Awareness. I have these diseases but I fight like a girl, and every day is a blessing.

If you want to contribute to Lupus Awareness please go to Lupus.org for more information.

I am a Lupus WARRIOR! 💗

Blessings today and always.

2019 · Bariatric Surgery - My Story · Dinner · Random Stuff · roasted · Uncategorized · Vegetables · WLS

Radishes

I love raw radishes, or in a salad. My Mom made radishes poached in butter. I bought these the other day…washed, and cut into quarters or halves.

I decided to roast them with some olive oil, salt and pepper.

Baked for about 30 minutes or until softened, and slightly browned.I loved these. David doesn’t care for them, but these weren’t bad per him.My plate…too much food and I didn’t eat all of it.Blessings.