Ya, I am struggling. To stay positive, to be encouraging, to be who I want to be.
Life happens. I want to snack, have wine, not exercise-stuff, that isn’t positive or encouraging. But reality.
I struggle. Struggle with the day to day, routine crap that can tie you down and sink you in a second.
So, in bed by 9pm and taking all I can to get me through the day.
Today is new. Beginning again. Every day is a new day.
Take time for self care…I am.
First…let me just say that Lupus sucks.
I am in a battle with insurance and secondary co-pays with my Actemra shots. I have been without my shot for two weeks, and I can honestly say I haven’t felt this bad in a long while. I have five mouth sores, swollen joints and severe fatigue.Ugh. I have to function. I have to go to the max every day. I can’t have this happen. What makes me even more frustrated is the fact that I can’t contact the insurance companies but during the day–my work day!Can someone say “screw me”?! But really though!!
Life in the moment: I am tired, fatigued, I hurt…physically…emotionally drained..and completely done with insurance. I have borrowed spoons for the week from next week, and not sure how many I have left.
Had to vent…sorry…but thanks.
Ya, so I got caught up in this…
First profile picture:
And then December 2018:
I posted that it is a ten year difference, and 115 pounds!!
So incredibly proud of my ten years. I really am in love with my wrinkles. Really!
What do you love about the last ten years? But really? I am so grateful for my weight loss surgery and the gifts it has given me.
I haven’t been well the past couple of days…but I can guarantee that if I didn’t have gastric sleeve I would be much worse now.
I am so thankful for so many things…but especially my surgery.
Yesterday. I had a lot going on at work, and wore the wrong shoes. So last night, my body hurt. One of the things to help me with my aches has been an Epsom Salt bath. I also use a bath bomb, one that is scented with Lavender to help relax me. Well, and a glass of wine. With my bones and Lupus, taking time to recoup is important. Understanding that my body needs to have a bit of help in healing.
What do you do to help you relax? What do you do to help you with your daily routine?
Most Sunday afternoons I take a bath with 2 to 3 cups of Epsom salts and a bath bomb.
My hips and knees thank me, and just in general, it is a good detox I think.
It helps me get settled for the week ahead. I pray, meditate and think of things I need to do for the week of without stressing.
I used to not be able to take a baths, and not get out by myself. Now it isn’t an issue with my weight loss. My bones still hurt and ache on a daily basis, but no one would know it. My activity level has increased, and this helps me stay on track.
Sometimes I have music, sometimes candles, but most times just quiet. I reflect on the past week, not with regret but with what needs to be improved upon. I reflect with what I am grateful for…family, friends (that are family), and so much more.
Lupus has a nasty habit of rearing it’s head when things are going well, but busy. This helps me get through the week…to handle the unexpected, the stress.
Detox baths are known to help with over indulgent times. Lupus bodies consider all times indulgent! I push myself more than I should because I don’t want to disappoint anyone, and this helps.
What do you do to get through the day-week or anything stressful? Does it help in the long run?
I have to remind myself that I don’t have to be perfect at everything.
I don’t know about you, but I am a perfectionist at heart. So this is hard for me, but I have to let go of some things.
Are you putting energy and effort where you really don’t need to?
I needed this again today. So many of us have too much going on. Take a deep breath and know that you are enough.