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Okay

A reminder that I don’t have to do it ALL, right?  I am not a super wife, Mom, or co-worker, although I would like to think that I am.

I am exhausted from doing way too much…slowing down at least for today.  I am enough.

Happy Tuesday.

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Chronic Pain Scale

I know that last month was Lupus Awareness month, but this popped up on my news feed on Facebook.  I live between a 5-7 normally.  Today I am more of a 10-11, and on the verge of more than that.

Pushing it takes so much out of me.  Stress that shouldn’t be there – work – adds to my daily struggle.

Happiness is a Friday, and maybe some much needed rest.

Blessings.

 

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Guilt

No excuses but really…lupus and its symptoms hurt more than my body. There is so much that I want to do but physically sometimes just can’t.

I get into this terrible cycle of not calling because I don’t want to bother people…and then think it was just last week that I spoke with them.  Terrible because months will go by that I haven’t spoken with them.

What do you feel guilt over?  What do you do to overcome it?

I need to remember that those that love me understand.  Some days are better than others in this belief.

Blessings.

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You

Proud of myself?  Nope…frustrated.  Frustrated that I have regain, and it took having pictures to show me what I look like again.  Frustrated that I have allowed myself to not follow the plan, and the tool that I fought hard to have help me.DSC_0244June 2015–Washington DC.JACI have to be proud that I am no longer there – right?img_0308February 2019 – Disney Princess 5k —I am SO VERY PROUD of myself for this.  Why can’t I just be happy with myself?  It is a daily struggle – constant.  David asked if I was okay with my weight, and I told him “yes.”  But I am not okay with it.  I feel so much better than what I did five years ago.  Can’t that be enough?

Thankful.  Frustrated.  Proud.  Enough.

Blessings.