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Power

This is so true for me with my health, home, and work.

I need to reset my attitude in everything pertaining to my body, and it begins with the mind.

Struggling, but aware.

Do you have something you need to change your mindset?

Blessings.

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2019 · Affirmations · Bariatric Surgery - My Story · encourage · family · friends · lupus · Uncategorized · WLS

Comfort Zone

This applies to so many things in my life right now.  I am trying to focus on dealing with challenges and problems, and I think I am locked in.  Although I float between the Learning Zone and Fear Zone with the self-confidence, I am building in that area.

My swings apply to my Lupus, weight loss, health in general, work and then life (family and friends).  I feel pulled in so many directions, and want everyone to be happy with me, I forget to be happy with myself.  Staying in the Fear Zone is something I do not want to do.   It seems I don’t consciously think that I am there.

Today I put myself out there…extending my comfort zone.  I spoke up for myself, and felt validated afterwards.  It is so hard, especially when I think others have a preset idea.  It is good to be heard, listened to, and acknowledged for my thoughts and ideas.

Presenting myself in a way that speaks self-confidence, I have gained more self-confidence.  Ironic really, and now I want to grow more.

What zone do you linger in?  How have you conquered your personal growth or not?

Blessings today and always.

 

Autoimmune · Depression · Enough · iv therapy · lupus · Random Stuff · Random Thoughts · Raynaud's · sjogrens syndrom · thoughts · Uncategorized

Lupus Flare

First…let me just say that Lupus sucks.

I am in a battle with insurance and secondary co-pays with my Actemra shots. I have been without my shot for two weeks, and I can honestly say I haven’t felt this bad in a long while. I have five mouth sores, swollen joints and severe fatigue.Ugh. I have to function. I have to go to the max every day. I can’t have this happen. What makes me even more frustrated is the fact that I can’t contact the insurance companies but during the day–my work day!Can someone say “screw me”?! But really though!!

Life in the moment:  I am tired, fatigued, I hurt…physically…emotionally drained..and completely done with insurance.  I have borrowed spoons for the week from next week, and not sure how many I have left.

Had to vent…sorry…but thanks.

Continued blessings.

frustration · lupus · Raynaud's · Uncategorized

Day

Yesterday was like any other day for me. I live in the Panhandle of Florida. It isn’t that cold here, but yesterday was cold for me. I did way too much on Saturday, rested on Sunday, so I should be okay, right?

Well, I get to work and my right index finger is numb. Oddly numb. It hurt, with tiny needles-painful.

The top two knuckles of my index finger are purple on the under side of my hand. The top of my hand…again index finger is white. My middle finger, the top knuckle, was affected as well.  It hurt to touch. It hurt to type. I have had discoloration before, and cold fingers with my Raynaud’s but this was different.

It took about a hour, but it finally came back, with a very, warm sensation.  Truly odd.

Trying to stay warm.

Blessings.

 

2019 · 5k · Breathe · college · Enough · lupus · Uncategorized

Overwhelmed

I have been feeling overwhelmed the past couple of days.

I feel as though I have taken on too much…at work and at home. Nothing is getting a hundred percent of me. I feel as though I am not even giving seventy percent to anything.

Home or personal…class –ugh! I signed up for a couch to 5k…feeling completely defeated as my hips are killing me today. I should have been at practice last night but instead took a bath. Class…ya not currently in the mood which isn’t helping.

Work…too many things coming at once and I actually feel trapped. I am able to do my job but feel as though I can’t keep up with what is coming at me (not able to do what needs to get done at the best of my ability).

Too much right now…trying to breathe.

Blessings.

2019 · Affirmations · Autoimmune · Bariatric Surgery - My Story · lupus · Random Stuff · Random Thoughts · Uncategorized · weight loss · WLS

Ten Year Challenge

Ya, so I got caught up in this…

First profile picture:

And then December 2018:

I posted that it is a ten year difference, and 115 pounds!!

So incredibly proud of my ten years. I really am in love with my wrinkles. Really!

What do you love about the last ten years? But really? I am so grateful for my weight loss surgery and the gifts it has given me.

I haven’t been well the past couple of days…but I can guarantee that if I didn’t have gastric sleeve I would be much worse now.

I am so thankful for so many things…but especially my surgery.

Blessings.

2018 · accomplishment · Anxiety · Bariatric Surgery - My Story · Christmas · family · Goals · letting go · lupus · Random Stuff · Random Thoughts · thoughts · traditions · Uncategorized · WLS

Punt The List

I am not going to get it all done…just putting this out there. Feeling okay about too.

Blessings.