I have been a bit busy and very neglectful with this blog…hoping to play a bit of catch up with this, and my household chores.
We live in the Panhandle of Florida, so we are also anticipating some rain from Dorian into the weekend and next week. Prayers, good thoughts are appreciated for all of those affected in the next week.
Blessings.
Yesterday afternoon I became deflated. I am 95 percent of the time a happy, encouraging person. I try to be that way with others, looking to the glass half full, to be positive. God has a plan, and I work that plan. I might not always agree with that plan, but I hang in there whatever the case might be.
And, I believe that He does have a plan. I just feel flat. That everything that I have worked for means nothing without a degree (work). Of course, where I work is a state college, and that degree matters, and I so know that! Don’t get me wrong. It takes courage to say this –I am sad.
I have a technical degree from (an accredited school) thirty years ago that won’t transfer. Again, that is okay. My past brought me here, and I am thankful of my path for it has made me who I am. But I am feeling worthless today.
I will be fine. I will get through this. There are much worse things out there, and we are fine!! I am not stating any of this for pity, or attention. I am stating this for reality. Because not everyday is bright and shiny. I treasure every moment, and love my struggles (even algebra). Oh, and I am still taking classes. I will get that degree – it may take me a while – but I will get it.
So, no pity. Just needed to vent. And this too shall pass.
Thanks.
“A bad storm can blow in a beautiful season. The Bible proves over and over that how something begins does not get to dictate how it ends.” – Beth Moore
Hurricane Nate brought down our tree, our oven went out (igniter) and my computer crash with my final essay on it for my English class. My Mom used to say that everything comes in threes. Well, we had our threes. David was wonderful in being able to repair the oven (replaced the igniter), and my computer (he does this for a living). Purchasing a chainsaw and allowing friends to help is difficult. Relying on help is not something either one of us like to do.
I was told once that you take away someone’s blessing when you don’t allow them to help. This is so true. I love helping—if able. Why wouldn’t we want help? Well, we are independent, secure, we can do it ourselves – right? I love being able to say, “let them help.” It blesses both the giver and the receiver, right? It does!!
Storms never bring good things…but what comes out of it, can be good. We only suffered a tree falling over. That is it. Well, and some tiles off of the roof. But really nothing major. We now have a chainsaw, and will be able to assist if others need assistance. Love that.
I absolutely freaked out about my final essay, and my computer crashing. I cried when David was able to retrieve the Word document. Cried. I used to say bubble over. You know, when you just can’t hold it in anymore, you bubble over. Tears flow. Cried.
My anxiety is such that I manage fine while something is gong on…but the moment it is completed, or over, tears flow. Relief. My body knows that it can let go.
I am so very grateful for family and friends that were able to help David take care of the tree. I am grateful for my hubby being able to recover my document for my English class, and to Google to repair our oven. I am grateful.
Blessings.
We ended up purchasing a chainsaw. Thankful for sweet friends and family to come and help. So very thankful that this was the only damage.
Apparently, it only took about two hours with the many hands of help. So thankful for these hands.
Feeling overwhelming grateful.
Blessings.
Woke up this morning to our front oak being uprooted. So very thankful that it didn’t come toward the house or on the cars. Julie (bestie, and neighbor across the street) took this picture from her house. 
We will have to wait until the storm is done before we can do anything about it. Thankful as well that the trees in the back yard are still standing, and have a good root system. Also thankful that David and Stephen have tomorrow off to work on this project, although both had other plans. I am sure that the squirrels that had a nest in this tree had other plans as well. Will post more pictures of the progress in the next days ahead.
Blessings!!
“Climb the mountains and get their glad tidings. Nature’s peace will flow to you as the sunshine flows into the trees. The winds blow their own freshness into you, and the storms their energy, while cares drop away from you like the leaves of autumn.”
– John Muir
Hurricane Nate is supposed to hit tonight, and we are on the East side of the storm. We shouldn’t have too much issue as the storm is directed a bit more West this morning. I am trying not to worry about what should or shouldn’t be done.
Busy trying to finish up my English homework before Carmen and I leave for a wedding of a friend of hers from school this afternoon. Lots of things to do or to accomplish. Just taking it a step at a time…climbing my mountains.
Blessings.
Blessings.
Storms. Hurricane Harvey. Life. Anxiety.
“A bad storm can blow in a beautiful season. The Bible proves over and over that how something begins does not get to dictate how it ends.” – Beth Moore
The storm and flooding from Hurricane Harvey is devastating today and it will continue for a while longer. I have family in Houston, and friends close by. Worried about them, and will be there if needed.
The quote above reminds me that in the midst of whatever we are going through, God will shine if allowed. I have to remind myself that homework is a gift. That I get to do it. I know that homework is nothing in comparison to a hurricane – please know that.
I have had many opportunities to do different things in my life. This one has caused more anxiety that others. I have to be perfect, right? No. Only Christ. Only Christ is the perfect one. I can strive to be perfect, but will fail daily. Failing is okay (okay, maybe not with class). Stumbling is better. Remembering to get back up after the fall is even better.
Remembering that storms bring rainbows. We just have to wait for them to come.
My anxiety is much like a storm. It comes in waves, hard and heavy. After it passes, I can see the rainbows. I don’t remember how bad the storm is really, just that I got through it. Wanting to get through my storm today.
Blessings.
Happy First Day of Summer.
I live in the Panhandle of Florida. We don’t normally get many storms, but apparently we are getting two in row in the next few weeks.
Mainly rain. Lots of rain. We have already had our share recently. The mushrooms are in bloom in the yard, and just keeping up with the grass is difficult. People are mowing regardless of the if the grass is dry enough kind of days.
So trying to stay dry…
Happy Wednesday!
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