Because yesterday was a lot. Too much. Doubt. Questions.
Today. Today–I am enough, unbelievably enough.
Believe. I need to believe this today.
Category: venting
Deflated
Yesterday afternoon I became deflated. I am 95 percent of the time a happy, encouraging person. I try to be that way with others, looking to the glass half full, to be positive. God has a plan, and I work that plan. I might not always agree with that plan, but I hang in there whatever the case might be.
And, I believe that He does have a plan. I just feel flat. That everything that I have worked for means nothing without a degree (work). Of course, where I work is a state college, and that degree matters, and I so know that! Don’t get me wrong. It takes courage to say this –I am sad.
I have a technical degree from (an accredited school) thirty years ago that won’t transfer. Again, that is okay. My past brought me here, and I am thankful of my path for it has made me who I am. But I am feeling worthless today.
I will be fine. I will get through this. There are much worse things out there, and we are fine!! I am not stating any of this for pity, or attention. I am stating this for reality. Because not everyday is bright and shiny. I treasure every moment, and love my struggles (even algebra). Oh, and I am still taking classes. I will get that degree – it may take me a while – but I will get it.
So, no pity. Just needed to vent. And this too shall pass.
Thanks.
Venting…
Venting, yes I need to vent.
Last night I went to bed propped up on pillows with vapor rub on my chest to ward of the beginnings of a cold. I slept well. I hoping to sleep in (for me that is around 10:00a.m.), but no. Not for me, and most certainly not today.
At 6:02 a.m. this morning a chirping beep begins. Yes, the smoke detectors are beginning their song and dance. After thinking I could sleep through it, (not) I got up to figure out which one of (I have no clue how many of) them are chirping.
It is now 6:30 a.m. and I have found the one (so I thought) that was going bad. I found a new 9 volt battery, and somewhere found a step stool to climb up on. I replaced the battery, only to discover another chirp.
And, so it goes, until I have used all of the new batteries (which I have 9 new ones), for 10 smoke detectors. Yes, one battery short. I thought for a bit and decided that one could not get a new one, but no, it keeps chirping.
Note: hubby is still in Afghanistan.
I do not wake up pretty. Hair goes in, at least, six different directions. My nose (vapor rub didn’t work) is stuffy and runny. Ugh. After I shower, and get ready for the really early day (especially for me) it begins to rain. Yes, rain. (insert laughter)
Okay Lord, I hear you. Umbrella in hand, off to Wal-Mart. Of course, I don’t just purchase 9 volt batteries (enough for the end of times), but milk, creamer, bread, (they had a sale on beef jerky), etc. So, $170 later…
I arrive home to be greeted by our rat terrier (Dexter) who is not happy that I left him alone with these annoying birds. After I bring the twelve bags of groceries, and put away the cold stuff, I venture off to locate the smoke detector that was missing a battery. I insert said battery into the detector, and press the reset button…and another one goes off…chirping.
After much thought (once again – NOT), I replace all of the units with new batteries.
No more chirping. Thank you God. Dexter is now napping, and I am thinking I will join him.
Happy Labor Day!!!
Blessings -always.
Jerry Ann
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