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Doctor Office

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I have been experiencing more anxiety in the past couple of months. I scheduled an appointment to see primary care doctor on Wednesday last week. She is amazing, and the pictures below are wall decor in the room where I was seen.  This says everything you need to know about her.  Genuine care giver.

She loves taking care of people, and doesn’t just prescribe a pill.  I have been doing some Young Living Oils (lavender, and tranquility), and they have helped.  Trying some other home methods to calm my spirit, and having a doctor listen, and understand helped even more.

I am having more stress than I was aware, and she did prescribe a take as needed (not everyday) pill for me.  We all struggle at different times I think.   It is nice to know that I can take something to help calm me when it gets to be too much.  It was encouraging to know that I am not alone.  More of us struggle with anxiety than we are aware.  Having a doctor that cares really does help.

Blessings for today, and always.

 

 

Changes · Proverbs 16:18; Philippians 4:13; random thoughts · thoughts

Thoughts

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I know that I should be more specific, but eh, that wouldn’t be me.  A reminder that I ramble, or forget where I am going (unless it is a recipe – but then I forget the items to put in it), or turn right three times and still get lost.  So hang in there…

Today’s calendar thought:

“You can’t get anywhere today if you are still mired down in yesterday.”  – unknown.

I went to bi-monthly Mom’s group today.  One that I last attended regularly in the Summer of 2000.  Yep, 12 years ago.  I know that my children are almost done growing (youngest is a 15 year old boy, and oldest 19 year old girl at college), and that I may not have much to offer or gain.  But I did today.  I did one of the hardest things in a long while for me to do, and that was admit that I have been feeling lost.  

The Lord has been working on my ego, and pride much to my dismay.  Ah, why can’t I just learn a lesson and be done?  Why can’t any of us read what scripture tells us, and do it.  Simple. Right?

Proverbs 16:18 (MSG) First pride, then the crash—the bigger the ego, the harder the fall.


Lost in my past routines, daily frustrations that they were, my routine.  Although, I felt called to be doing what I did…my pride now…is showing nothing.  I am not working…  I am at home…  Without a routine.  Structure is to be my gain.  Learning from the past, letting go of my past pride and ego.  

Lost in the securities of knowing what the day held.  Lost.  I let go this morning of that feeling just by sharing in Christian Fellowship.  I know that hindsight is 20/20.  I know that I am secure in His plans for me.  Just need to seek Him.

I know that I am home for my health, to have less stress.  I know that I am home to help my hungry all the time 15 year old son.  He is struggling now with school, and we are on the path to help guide him.  But this is a path that I am unsure of…one with a routine I have never experienced before.  Not sure of my steps in this path.  How am I to guide when I have no clue where we are going? 

Connections.  We are to be with other Christians to support, help, remind ourselves that we don’t do anything alone.  I will attend that Mom’s group again, Lord willing.  I will try to listen, and be there for someone else, like those precious women were there for me today.  

He guides our ways.  He holds us close. 

Focusing on Him, today and tomorrow with a new routine.

Philippians 4:13 (NIV)  I can do all this through him who gives me strength.


Blessings,
Jerry Ann
beginnings · blessings · Changes · Goals · Random Thoughts

Moved My Cheese.

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So, last week I moved my cheese.

I quit my job.  I have worked there for 12 years, doing a variety of things.  It is different not having to go in on a Monday morning.  It is different not dreading Monday.

Yesterday was the first time in a very long time I sat in my church just as a church member.

God has placed the right people in place for me to let go.  Let go.  If any of you know me, you know how very difficult that truly is. Letting go for me has never been easy.  This was different.  God let this go.  He is letting me relax in this guided path.

I will still be there as a consultant when they need me.  If they need me.

But this week, new habits, new routines, new beginnings.

Blessings,
Jerry Ann

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Moving My Cheese

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Several years ago, there was a book entitled “Who Moved My Cheese?” by Spencer Johnson.  The basic premise of the book is there is constant change.  It is how we deal with the change that either allows us to find where our cheese has moved, or die continuing to go back where it was.


I have always been fine with change so long as it was me doing the changing.  You know what I mean…when we manage the control…everything is fine.  I have had this as my mantra for a while now (since reading the book I believe).  Moving my cheese…is happening now.  


I have been looking to do something different for a while now, and I am taking a leap of faith.  


I will update once everything is in place.  Prayers appreciated.

Blessings,
Jerry Ann

Changes · family

Changes

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Changes.  There are always changes.  Seasons of life.  Birth. Youth.  Single Adult. Married. Children. Divorced. Widowed. Death.  We can count on these things, just like taxes.  ha.

Changes are once again happening around our house.  Carmen has moved back home from college.  Summer is almost upon us.  Another year has gone by.

My hubby has accepted a job offer to do computer work in Afghanistan.  He will be gone a year, and that is to begin very soon.  We are trying to accept the next year joyfully, gratefully, anxiously.

We were talking tonight, and he said to me, “I’m not nervous about my physical safety, I am nervous about missing you.”  I melted, and try my best not to cry.  I somewhat held it together.

My precious daughter said this, “My mother landed the lead role in a Nicholas Sparks movie.  My standards have been set.”  I lost it with her.  This meant the world to me.  We (kids and I) have struggled for the right man to be in our lives, and we have found him.  God blessed us, and we are truly grateful.  I am grateful that my daughter has a Godly man in her life, and that she has a standard for marriage.


We try to do our best daily. Moment by moment.  I just try to keep up.  We all do right? 


Prayers for traveling mercies appreciated.  Prayers for our most immediate needs to be covered.  I know that we will be provided for, always have been.  Prayers for David with endurance, strength and time to pass quickly.


Blessings today and always.


Jerry Ann

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Changes

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Life changes…

David will be starting a new job on Monday.  It is a great opportunity for him professionally, and will enable us to climb out of our debt hole just a bit quicker.  Changes…for me as well at work.  Trying to stay focused on the organization of the house, getting things ready the evening before, memorizing Bible verses, doing my bible study, and…laundry.  ha.

Today was a hair day.  I love hair days, you can change your hair as often as you want.  You could have blond, red, auburn, brown, black hair in a matter of minutes.  Short, long (extensions) doesn’t really matter any more either.

This picture was taken on New Year’s Eve.  David and I celebrated with dear friends (and neighbors), and had a great time.   One of my favorite colors is pink.

My hair used to be thick, brown with highlights when I was younger.  I am thinning (I do not like this at all), and try to style to hide it.  Men can have thin hair, and they are called distinguished.  Well, not me.  My mother was a hair dresser/stylist/beautician in a small town.  I grew up having my hair cut (not always the way I wanted), but whenever I wanted, and she loved to play with color.  When a new product came in, she would want to try it out on me.  I loved/love being able to change my hair so quickly.  Changing habits or physical appearance (body) is much harder to do.

So…my new do: 

The picture is from a iphone, and a self portrait (with the help of a bathroom mirror).  So…I love the color, especially this time of year.  I am a creature of habit with my hair, and normally default back to styling one way.  I do like the way this frames my face (I have lost a little bit of weight), and thins me.

So…what do you think?

Blessings,
Jerry Ann