Lately I have been struggling with what others say I don’t have. Today I woke up with what I have accomplished. My positivity came back. I am staying in the direction that I feel God has led me on since the beginning. Just because I don’t like what I am hearing, or what others are saying doesn’t mean that God may lead me to stay the course instead.
College has been hard (for me with working full time). Most of the time it is too much work, that it is too hard. I want to walk away –sometimes (okay most of the time). But I come back to “I am not a quitter. I am a finisher!” I need to put blinders on and concentrate on the end goal. Just because I won’t finish college in the typical four years doesn’t mean I won’t finish. A seven-and-a-half year college plan is a goal, right? Semester after semester, just to keep plowing way, one class here, maybe two classes there. Then one day, I will wake up and realize I have a degree. But I won’t get there if I quit.
I won’t get to my weight goal if I keep thinking that eating cheese puffs and Chardonnay for dinner is healthy either. I need to put the green, leafy vegetables in my mouth, drink water, and exercise for the plan to work. Again, the goal of weight loss isn’t easy. My gastric sleeve surgery was a tool to help me lose the weight, not for me to gain it back in a year. I didn’t go through surgery to fail.
Every day is a new opportunity to succeed. I felt deflated yesterday. I cried yesterday. Self pity is not pretty, but we all go through it. Today is a new day. I am planting new seeds.
Let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up. — Galatians 6:9 ESV