This picture was taken 4 months ago at work. Day one of my liquid diet (with protein shakes-Phase 1). Weight 293.8. Ugh.
Size 26/28 or 3x to 4x pants and shirts. Not my largest, and most certainly not my smallest. Reminder to self that this is day 1. A beginning again. I have struggled, as most have, with maintaining diets or even tricking myself by calling it lifestyle change. Daily criticism from my inner being. My heaviest was 315 pounds.
Here I am with Carmen August 20, 2006. My wedding day. Weight: 276 pounds. I have gone up and down so much, but there are certain dates I can remember my weight. The exact weight. Weighing that morning and thinking I am supposed to be beautiful on my wedding day. All I could think about was how hard it was going to be to walk on the beach. How fat I would look in the pictures.
What I ended up thinking about was my new family. David has been a complete supporter of me. Not necessarily of my diet plans or choices, but in general 100% my cheerleader.
I was in Drill Team (dance team) in high school in the 80’s. I am on the far left of the above picture. Dancing was wonderful. I was anywhere from size 12 to an 18/20 during those four years, but I could still dance. I was bullied a lot too, but that is another story for another day. I even choreographed a lot of the dances then. I want to be able to kick as high as I used to, well maybe. I do want to be able to have my nose touch my knees without screaming. Goals, right?
So…I am a far bit behind in posting my journey. I will be catching up with you over the next month. Thank you, and continued prayers and thoughts are appreciated.