I need something to do. Not do, really, but do. Ya know? I want to contribute to something that will have an impact. Make my life worthwhile. I don’t want my life to be just busy. Busy with work, laundry, homework, and cleaning. But busy with family, and friends. Hearing what they have to say. Be that encouraging friend or Mom or wife. I want those things. I think I do these occasionally, but not near enough.
I have begun my next Math class (online), and feeling overwhelmed at times again. So, with my anxiety, I don’t just want to add something to my day. I want my days to count, not to be wasted.
I have spent far too much time in my chair (or couch) with my weight, and Lupus the past 10 years or so. I am done with that. Especially now with my weight loss, I feel better. I have more time to contribute to friendships. But I want more – I want to be outside in my yard (that is dying…a topic for another post), out with friends chatting about their day, or just walking around the block with our kids. I want to be strong in faith. To encourage my friends to take those chances on life, to go on that trip, or start up that business.
So, I am thinking about how my days can be better managed so that I can contribute somewhere. Just not sure where yet. Prayers and positive thoughts appreciated.
“Finally, be strong in the Lord and in His mighty power.” – Ephesians 6:10 (NIV)