David, Carmen and I went to church yesterday morning at 8am. I have so missed church. Just the fellowship of worshiping our Risen Savior. It is one of my favorite holidays, just so humbling. Carmen went with us, and we attended with David’s parents (super nice).
I got a half ham at Publix (already sliced), and planned on having the kids over for dinner. Had the ham in the crockpot, and came hone to prep everything. (in another post)
I know that things have changed for us, and had planned on Stephen coming over for dinner if not for church. Okay- 8am church was not going to happen. But really didn’t think that he just wouldn’t show for dinner or anything until his sister tempts me to post something on social media.
We always post a silly picture of the baskets especially since they are older.
Well this got a reaction. From everyone apparently. So he ended up showing up for about 20 minutes for fear that I would really not give him his basket goodies. I don’t like poking, but apparently I do that a lot.
I wanted my kids around. To enjoy the Risen Lord. We have always spent this day together, and sometimes with other families. Today was so different.
Sad for me. Weird for the rest of the family. I was sad, not happy that everyone wasn’t here. I was mad that Stephen just came over just to appease me. I hate that I had to poke him to get him to come over. I don’t like that part of me.
I will be doing some self examination in the next few weeks. I didn’t like how I acted and reacted today.
I failed today. I fail everyday in some way or another. Who doesn’t? Did you fail today?
Blessings.
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