“Joshua said to them, ‘Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Be strong and courageous. This is what the LORD will do to all the enemies you are going to fight.” Joshua 10:25 NIV
I have been discouraged with myself this past week. So much so that people actually see that something is wrong, that I am upset. I am not dealing well with things at work. Not that my work has changed, but the work I am doing. I am the type of person who wants my work to be perfect. It has to done perfectly. I fight with myself on this constantly.
Logically, I know that I am not perfect, nor the work I do is perfect. I know this, but it doesn’t change the fact that I want it to be. My enemies are my inside voices. Those that tell me I am not good enough. That I can’t do it all. (Again, I know that I can’t but some days are worse than others.) My self worth has been low lately.
I over commit to things in January. I am overwhelmed, although not busy. I am anxious with silly things. I want to be calm in spirit, to encourage and support those around me. One evening this past week, I came home and just cried. I tell others that when they do that it is a release. Your body can’t hold in everything anymore and needs to let things go. I feel week, and uncertain when it happens to me.
“I am with you and for you. You face nothing alone–nothing! when you feel anxious, know that you are focusing on the visible world and leaving Me out of the picture. The remedy is simple: Fix your eyes not on what is seen but on what is unseen. Verbalize your trust in Me, the Living One who sees you always. I will get you safely through this day and all your days. But you can find Me only in the present. Each day is a precious gift from My Father. How ridiculous to grasp for future gifts when today’s is set before you! Receive today’s gift gratefully, unwrapping it tenderly and delving into its depths. As you savor this gift, you find Me.” – Romans 8:31; 2 Corinthians 4:18; Genesis 16:13-14 AMP —Jesus is Calling by Sarah Young
Again, making some changes. Letting go. Forgiving myself and knowing that I don’t have to do everything.
I am enough.